weakness

today i was so weak. not the good kind of weak, when you don't eat. Today i was weak and ate. i was so weak. plz help me. why was i so weak? i ate.. a muffin my father bought me.. he bought it for me, and thats so special b/c we never do anything together, all we do is live together. he knew what kind i used to eat, nd got it for me.. i ate it.  so.. afterwards i ran for 60 minutes to burn it off.. which probably only burned off like 2% of the muffin. then at 3pm i ate 2 pierogies. Then.. some candy. yup. a few starburts and skittles. then a few ribs. OMG.... so much food... WHY. why did i do it??? then i purged. i purged after the apple crisp. YEAH. i know.. plz.. i want to swear not to be so weak ever again