hmm.. let's see where we're at now.  I usually skip dinner, but yesterday i ate both.. just cuz i heard it was somehow bad for you.. but my dinner was only a few pieces of chicken... i also excersized a lot, so i hoped it would be okay.. i also ate both lunch and dinner that day cuz i knew i wouldn't eat today. skipped lunch, ate a scrap for dinner, then my coworkers and i went out after work.. it's 1 am but i ate a tiny tiny bit. :( by a tiny bit.. it actually means how much a normal person eats. how much some one who doesn't care eats. it just meants that i'm eating fattly.  i have control.. because ana encourages me, she knows whats right for me. i can feel my old jeans feel loose. and ana is to thankf or that. how in the world did i EVER live without ana?


after reading so many blogs.. now i see.. now i see why. now i see why all these girls are saying, he chose her because she's thinner, prettier. I'm fatter.. younger. I'm fatter..... i never hit me.. until now. i can't chase him, not with her in the picture.. now i understand...